Thursday, December 17, 2015

Hello from Maine!

Edited to add: No yarnie/knitting content in this post due to time constraints! Apologies! 
Also, I totally skipped over November and my lovely Michigan experiences. Will update in a later post!

Greetings from Maine! I got out of the plane, armed with my winter coat (good for down to -20 degrees!), and walked into 50 degrees of rainy and wet. Not snowy, RAINY. Yup. Rain, in December, in the northernmost part of the country.

Maine has been having its warmest winter yet, which both bodes well for this Vegas girl of warm weather, and yet makes me a bit sad that I came all this way for snow (well, and training), and it's the same temperature as it is back home.

I shouldn't complain. It still gets down below freezing at night, and cold(er) weather would make this rotation much harder. I don't have to worry about slipping on ice at 12 midnight returning from night call, or shoveling snow at 5AM before morning sign-off.

Either way, time has flown by these past few weeks, and I can't believe I'm already in my third week here! I'm doing inpatient this month, so things get a little bit crazy, as there is one resident and 1-2 medical students. Since I'm doing a sub-internship, it's considered the same as if I were an intern. Things can be a little hard sometimes, especially since this rotation is very unstructured in many ways. But I do feel very lucky to be here, and to experience intern year without complete responsibility, and I have a little bit of leeway as a medical student. The residents are very nice, and go out of their ways to help guide me where I need to go. So far, I've gotten to admit two patients on my own, discharge one patient, and make rounds on approximately fifty patients. It's definitely valuable experience, and I've learned so much in the last 2 weeks.

Now, it's not all work (just mostly.) I did get a bit of fun now and then with my roommates! I'm living in the student housing that the hospital provides, which is a block down the hill from the hospital. There are 3 rooms here, and we currently have 5 students. We are all from different places: Marie from Maine by way of Vermont, Adam from Georgia by way of BU, Linda from Netherlands by way of Michigan State University (who is also interviewing here), Abby from Maine by way of New Zealand, and me. We're all on different rotations, different schedules, but we try to make time for fun and get together. Someone (usually either Abby or I) cook dinner, and we all contribute something. Abby and I explored Portland a few times, and we went to Freeport last week (she went for nostalgia, I went to fangirl at the LL Bean store.). This week, we also had a nice Chinese meal (from an authentic restaurant here in this little Mainer town, who knew?!?), all of the roommates, before everyone leaves for the holidays. It was great to sit down with everyone, and hash over our experiences.

Eek, this is getting long, and I have a bit of work to do before my afternoon rounds, so I'll have to get to the knitting and yarn adventures on another post! Probably sometime this week.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

October Adventures

October just finished, and what an adventure that was! I had to shake my head at how close some of those adventures were, and yet the fun has just begun. What am I talking about? Two words:
Interview Season.

I am now in my fourth year of medical school, which means that I need to find a residency for next year. I applied to quite a few places, and now have some interview offers. In order for this not to drag the post too long (this is supposed to be half life stuff and half knitting), Here is a summary of where I have been:

October 2nd: Come home from Cleveland, Ohio (where I was on audition rotation for 2 weeks)
October 7th: Pack bags for flight to Philadelphia
October 9th: Board exam in Philadelphia
October 10th: Drive from Philly to Binghamton, NY to meet up with parents and watch my brother in his first NCAA swim meet, then drive back to Philly to barely catch my flight home!
October 13th: Pack bags for Red-eye to Lexington, Kentucky
October 14th: Drive from Lexington to Pikeville, had lunch with residents and then a panel-style interview at Pikeville Medical Center, drive back to Pikeville, was locked out of the terminal because TSA closed at 10pm (who knew?), and spent the night covered in blankets on a out-of-service coin-operated massage chair, then flew home at 5AM EST, arrive 9AM EST and go to clinic (Pediatric Neurology)
October 16: Pack bags for Red-eye to Columbus, Ohio
October 17th: Arrive in Columbus, drive 2 hours to Athens, Ohio, for interview at 9AM on a Saturday, then drive back to Columbus for flight home.
 October 24th: Pack for Red-eye to Boston
October 25th: Arrive in Boston, drive 2 hours north to Augusta, Maine, for dinner with the residents
October 26th: 9AM interview with the faculty, then all-day tour and interview of the facilities and multiple clinics, then drove back to Boston to barely make flight home.
October 30th: packed for 5AM flight to Grand Rapids, Michigan
October 31st: Flew to Grand Rapids, will be stationed in GR for the next month

Whew! And that is October! I've got November with a few interviews, December with a few, and January with some as well! It's going to be a long interview season, for which in some ways I am grateful. The alternative of NO interviews is definitely NOT preferable, and a scary prospect to consider. I am grateful that there are programs out there that want to interview me, and see my training potential and skills.

<Start Knitting Section>
Now, finally onto the Knitting! October has been Socktober, as I followed along with the Carolina Fiber Girls podcast's Soctober contest. While I did not get the most points scored, I did decently well. I had a final pair of socks on the needles that would have garnered me almost 50 points had I finished them, but I had to pull an all-nighter on the 30th to finish packing, which meant most of my knitting time in the airport and on the airplanes was catch-up sleep time, and the sock did not get done in time. But nonetheless, I had a great time knitting socks, and I even memorized Meghan Williams's OMG socks heel pattern, so now I don't have to keep looking at them any more!

Here is what I finished:
1. Watermelon Socks! The yarn is by Abi Grasso, and were quite hard to obtain. I had to PM her on Etsy and custom order it. But I saw the yarn knit up on Tapgurl Carmen's Instagram feed, and just had to have a pair of watermelon socks of my own! The one small thing I didn't like was that the yarn was light fingering, which meant my normal gauge was all off-kilter.
2. Grandmother's Socks!
I had this yarn in my stash for a while, and had been meaning to knit them up. It is Highland Handmades, and I don't quite recall the colorway, but I think it was called Hard to Match, or something like that. The yarn is SUPER soft, and I couldn't quite believe it was only 100% merino. I could have sworn that it was MCN or baby alpaca. Such a joy to knit with! And since my grandmother has size 5.5 feet, these socks were finished practically in a blink.
3. Baby socks!
My parents were going to visit China, and I wanted to get something for my baby nephew. He is almost 3, and since Shanghai winters are super cold, I figured some 100% wool socks would keep his little feet nice and warm. I used the Knitmore Girls recipe for toddler tube socks, and hopefully they will fit his feet.
Works in Progress: 
1. I am just finishing up the second sock in the pair of Rack 'em Stack 'em, which is a Fibretown design. I am using a Socktober colorway: Carolina Dog by Lilliput Yarn. The colors are teal and purple, which are gorgeous together. It also reminds me of my high school 
 2. I finally got to start knitting on the Nothing Says Screw You Like a Rainbow socks, but my Knitpicks needles broke AGAIN, so this project is a sad ball of sock and tangled yarn, which I did not bring with me to Grand Rapids.

3. Although I did not win Socktober the Contest, I was able to catch a Socktober-only update that Lollipop yarns had especially for the CFG listeners, and scored my first-ever skein of lollipop yarn! It is so gorgeous I don't want to knit with it, but my father needs some Christmas Socks, and I can't think of a better person to gift with Lollipop socks. 
 4. Finally, I of course had to buy some yarn after getting to GR! I stopped by a store called Threadbender because I needed to buy a new needle, and they had an entire stand full of Knitted Wit Gumballs! This was the perfect solution for me, since I want to knit ALL of the Knitted Wit colorways. I picked out a few of my favorites, and I am going to knit them all together into stripey patchwork socks.Can't wait!


This again became a longer post than I anticipated! I hope everyone is doing well, and enjoyed Halloween. I spent it in a hotel room, where I was going to knit, but then fell asleep with the lights on and the needles still in my hands. Hope everyone had fun! 

Best, 
~Z

Monday, November 2, 2015

September OMM part one: San Diego

( Hi! This is ZT, in November. This post is part of a series of entries I wrote and then forgot to publish,. I am sorry if the narrative doesn't quite make sense in the timeline. This entry was written on Setptember 10th, 2015)

September has brought some sort of normalcy into my life. Well, as much normalcy as any 4th year medical student can expect.

I finished up my August Neurology rotation with more experience and interest in Neurology than I ever thought possible. That has been my greatest surprise so far. I started the rotation with trepidation, as someone who has always hated neuroanatomy and neuroscience, added to anger and stress from dealing with a sarcastic and irritable office manager who treated medical students alternately like children or like dirt. However, by the end of the rotation, I gained more insight into both the field of neurology and the inner workings of a successful specialist office than I ever thought possible. The office manager and I ended with mutual respect for each other, and my attending gave me the opportunity to help shape the rotation for future medical students. I was humbled and grateful for all that I had gained from August.

I also took the second part of my medical boards at the end of August, and it went better than I anticipated. Now, I still have to wait for the scores, so I don't know how things are just yet. I am grateful to be done with studying, if only for a little while.

September 10th , I finished the first part of my September rotation, at an osteopathic office in San Diego. I was so delighted to be there, and learned so much from the two short weeks. I saw the love that the patients and physicians had for each other, and how the office staff were literally a family, and how students were treated like valuable assets for the future. I learned so much about the culture of osteopathy. I was reminded yet again of the holistic approach to treatment, from exercise tips to nutrition and sleep. I loved every moment I was there, for it gave me insight into how I might want to possibly run my office in the future. I loved the patients, the people, the lifestyle; everything. The physician was one of the best role models for osteopathy, and she inspired me to keep learning and learn as much as I can.

Tomorrow, I head home, and then off to Ohio for my first audition rotation. I'll have to be on even better than my best behavior, but I've learned so much in the last year that I know I am ready to show the world who I am. I hope that I will find the type of residency I want to do, and that they find me to be the exact resident they want, and that we will match perfectly.

<Knitting>
I have been doing quite a bit of knitting lately, what with all of my travels and taking boards (i.e. travel plus boards stress). Also, my brother has recently started school at a military academy in the Northeast, and he'll need all the warmth he can get once winter hits. As a desert rat, he's never lived in a place with snow before. Thus, I'm knitting as fast as I can to make sure he'll survive the winter without turning into an ice cube. I finished my brother's Harry Potter Socks, out of the Simply Socks Yarn Company Poste yarn in the Wizard Knowledge colorway.

I also started my brother's next pair of socks, an Army-green colored pair out of Deborah Norville Serenity yarn in the Woodsy green colorway. I finished one and a half pair.

I'm also finishing up my Trickle Shawl, in the Juniper Moon Farm Herriott Heathers yarn, 1014 colorway. The pattern is Trickle Shawl by Jennifer Lassonde. I've had so much fun knitting this, as I luxuriate in the baby alpaca yarn and the pretty coppery golden color. I can't wait to wear it this fall and winter as I proceed to my audition rotations in Michigan and Maine. I know that it will be cold, but that's what all the knitting is for. I can finally wear all my pretty hand-knits again! I am in search of the perfect hat pattern to use the other half of my Herriott Heathers DK yarn, so that I'll be completely swathed in baby alpaca this winter. More to come later!

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Internal Medicine 2: Infectious Disease

Note: no knitting content on this post. I forgot to publish this a while back, so all of my knitting was updated in other posts.

This month (May), I am on ID, or Infectious Disease. It is definitely an interesting change of pace from last month's Internal Medicine clerkship. Instead of getting up at 6am to go to the hospital for short rounds, I am getting up at 6am, but staying home to handwrite notes for 4 hours before heading to the hospital and rounding on the patients. This is my first specialty rotation, and it is definitely very different. While we still want to make sure the patient is alive and stable, our entire focus is on the patient's infection. It doesn't matter if the patient has heart disease or diabetes. We are here to focus on treating the patient's infections. The only labs we really care about are those that are affected by the medications we are prescribing, and those that reflect the patient's infection: white count, viral load, temperature, etc.

The days are hard, but we are learning so much. I had forgotten so many of the medications from second year, and this had been a good review of antibiotics. I am so happy with our team. We have a good group of people, and I know that I can trust them to have my back. Our days are pretty long, from 6am to usually 5pm, but the last two or three hours are usually lectures by our attending physician, a renowned infectious disease specialist, and we are usually happy to spend as much time as we can with him. We conduct the lectures in the doctor's lounge, and that way we are able to get some water and much-needed refreshments. Oh, and go to the bathroom. I am so thankful for my kidneys and bladder. They take so much abuse, as it is frowned upon to go to the bathroom on rounds. Especially since we never know which route the doctor wishes to take that day, and sometimes you'd be late to the presentation of your own patient. That is REALLY frowned upon, needless to say. I am learning so much and feel privileged to be on this rotation, since it is a very popular and hard to get rotation. I look forward to learning the rest of this month.

Knitdown lockdown, Neurology, and Boards, oh My!

WARNING: Super long post! Long Rant about life-stuff in the beginning, lots of knitting content at the end. 

August has been extremely hectic as I am running around finishing quite a few tasks at the sme time. I was at a medical boards review class all of last month in Kansas, which was both necessary but also an annoyance. Everything that I had been doing had to be put on hold, and I lived in a hotel room for a month, studying from 7am to 9pm every day, eating hot dogs from the hotel and anything I could cook in a rice cooker. (Note: actually quite a lot of things can be cooked in a rice cooker.) It was nice in a way, to just shut myself in with a select few other students and teachers, and limit my outside contact for the most part to just a few letters and emails to my family and phone calls every night to my parents. My brother has been undergoing his Beast training at West Point at the same time, and in some ways my life paralleled his, except that all of my training was for mental endurance.

This month started out relatively slow as I started my Neurology rotation with an esteemed physician. He was on vacation for the first week of the rotation, so I was able to get used to the policies and procedures in his office, work on my residency applications, and do quite a bit of boards studying as well. This week, on the other hand, was extremely hectic. There were some days where I was at the office for 12 hours. There were some days where the office manager gave me time limitations, down to the minute of when and where I should be meeting with the physician versus seeing the patient. There were some days when I got home at 7pm (after starting the day at the office at 7am) and could barely keep my eyes open to do one block of questions and would sadly look at my notes and not have the energy or mental capacity to record my incorrect answers. On Friday, as I left, the office manager warned us that next week was likely to be the same. 

As mentioned before, I am taking my second set of medical boards at the end of the month, which also contributes to the craziness. The clerkship is crazy enough on its own, with the stern and sarcastic "operations manager", the highly critical attending physician, and the plethora of medical students, medical assistance, nurses, and physician assistance all vying for time and attention with the physician and trying to see a large amount of patients all at the same time, but add to that trying to study and memorize facts and do questions. In addition, I am also applying for residencies at this time, which makes things even just a bit more hectic. However, I know that these times are only as challenging as I can handle, and I am getting everything done, as much as I can. I know that these are the times when I grow, both as a person and as a future physician. I am learning to handle multiple tasks, and memorize complicated lists of patients and their health information, as well as learning, memorizing, and remembering facts and numbers and information that will be pertinent to the board exams. I know that this is going to help me in the future. I know this. I know I can handle this. It doesn't make the days suck any less. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to pursue my passion, and have the resources on hand to do all of these things at once. It it still hard work. I will get through it. Knowing that doesn't make it any easier, though. 

<Knitting content starts here> I have done some knitting and finished a couple of things, since I have been traveling quite a bit. I finally finished my Parrot socks, which are MCN socks out of Polly wants a Cracker colorway by TurtlePurl Yarns. They are so soft and squishy and overall wonderful. It was my stress knitting for most of the time I was in Kansas, just a row here and there, from the airport to the hotel and one or two rows before bed. I'm quite pleased with how they turned out: almost matchy-matchy.

While I was in Kansas, I also started my rainbow mitts, which are with the Running Mitts pattern by Heather of the Fiberista Files/Highland Handmades podcast and yarn by Leading Men Fiber Arts in the OMG Squee! Colorway. I finished these on the plane ride home, next to a hilarious and large Kansas family who were going to a drill team competition and had never been on a plane before. I loved their enthusiasm.

Works in Progress: I have the second of my Pebble Beach shawls still in the works, but since it is laceweight, it is becoming somewhat of a slog. I'm about 75% done, but I think I'll put it off until after boards because we are not getting along.  In addition, I had started my Jaala Spiro Diamonds Lace shawl with Knit Circus yarns, but a mistake somewhere in the beginning is making everything one stitch off. I don't think I have the mental capacity to deal with lace right now, so it is also going in the "after boards" pile to think about its behavior. 

New Things: When I got home from Kansas, I was in somewhat of a dither. I shouldn't be starting things, but at the same time, with Stash Dash going on, I wanted to start and knit all of the things. I tried to put myself under Knit-Down Lock-down, meaning not knit anything for the month of boards. That didn't work. I was miserable, and couldn't concentrated on studying, my mind going a mile a minute but unable to focus on my work. So I compromised, and worked on a few things here and there.  Most of what I started are things with lots of stockinette or garter, things that I can mostly not think about and knit while I study. This is what I have been working on, off and on: 

1. Book Woman Jacket: I have been eyeing this pattern for a long time from the Stitching in the Stacks book, and I figured I should start working on them now, if I am going to be going to all of the cold places this winter (Maine, Michigan, etc. More on that later.) I'm knitting this out of Eco+ Wool instead of the called for Aran weight because I have a ton of this wool and because with my loose gauge, I actually get gauge with Eco. 

2. Socks for Jay: I have been promising my brother Jay socks from the Simple Socks Poste yarn in the Ravenclaw/Cleverness colorway for about 6 months. There is a bit of a backlog on socks, so I figured since I finished a pair, I might as well start these for him. It'll take some time to finish, but since he's probably not going to be able to wear them in the army, he can have them as his Christmas present. It will be my go-to sock on the needles for a while, since he has enormous feet.

3. Trickle Shawl: I am doing this partially for the Palkal/AYNKal, but also because I have been wanting to use this baby alpaca yarn for so long and never know what to do with it. It's baby alpaca, it's special, I think to myself. I need to save it for later, I think. But at the same time, with the countdown to graduation and residency less than 1 year away, I'm starting Operation Knit All the Stash and not caring about saving the stash. 

I think that covers it all, for the most part. Hope everyone is staying cool in the summer heat, and all is going well! I'll try to check in again soon! 

Best, 
~Z

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Internal Medicine 1, OMM socks, and Residency stuff

March and April have gone by in a blur of conferences, night shift calls, OMM treatments, and Internal Medicine woes. Fortunately for my knitting, all of this meant lots of travel time, stress, and anxiety, which lead to some of my best knitting. I'll talk first about the med school stuff, and then about the knitting.

In March, I attended my first Convocation, the annual convention for OMM physicians and students. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, and learned so much. I was also happy to see some of my friends from other schools, and got to catch up on their lives, as well as meet up with some of my friends from first and second year of medical school, as we have not seen each other in months. In addition, I TA'd 6 OMM classes, and found myself lacking in the ability to communicate effectively. I also experienced my first bout of cynicism. I am usually such a positive person, that it was strange to think that I didn't want to believe in the best in people all of the time. However, I felt like I didn't quite try as hard as I could have in teaching some of the students, as they probably would not want to actually do this in the future. However, I quickly corrected my thinking. Who knows who will end up doing OMM in the future? Just because the students don't know it very well or like it well right now does not mean that in one or two years, they might not have a change of heart, and the more confident they are in their skills now, the more likely they will want to do OMM on their patients in the future. 

It was with great trepidation and sadness that I finished my OMM clerkship, as I knew that I would not have as easy or happy of a time in April, during my first Internal Medicine inpatient clerkship. I was right. Internal Medicine has been the most challenge clerkship I've had as of yet. Everyday, I felt like I was drowning, or treading in deep water with the fear that if I were to stop for one moment, I would drowned. I didn't know what to do when I went in, and even now, I feel like I don't know what I am doing. I HAVE, however, gotten better at doing History and Physical exams, as well as developing my skills of differential diagnoses, assessments, and have some idea of plans of action, though I still need to work on that. I wish we had classes on how much fluids to give and when, and what to do for patients at what time. I suppose that is what I am here to learn. I have learned so much about thinking on my feet, and asking patients questions to develop my differential diagnoses. I am so grateful to the interns and residents who were patient with me and helped me to learn. I do wish that I was able to do more, but at the same time, I was so tired and grumpy and unhappy all the time that I know I don't want to be there for residency. They had such a negative attitude towards OMM. In addition, I felt like I was on display and being tested all of the time, on topics I had no idea about. I know that with time, and lots of studying, I will know all of the answers, but I just hate feeling stupid and ignorant all of the time. 

<Knitting stuff starts here!> In terms of knitting, I knit quite a lot during the last two months. In March, I decided to make a hat to coordinate with my Balsam Hollow shawl, out of the Leading Men Fiber Arts Anne with an E colorway yarn, from the little skein in the big wool kit, as I had half a skein left. I had purchased two Alana Dakos books on Amazon, Coastal Knits and Botanical Knits 1, and I ended up making the Rustling Leaves Beret. However, I ran out of yarn with only a little to go, and ended up having to supplement with Elle Rae yarn.

Next, I wanted to make something for my mom to wear when she went to China, so I dug out some yarn that I had wanted to use for a long time, Prism Yarn Merino Mia in the Orchard colorway, and I made Kristen Belleheumer's Palindrome scarf.
I also wanted to make a hat for my grandmother, who is still in China, so I made a second Rustling Leaves Beret, this time in Knitcircus's Acrobat yarn, in the Root Bear colorway. 
In the second week of March, I attended Convocation, and I decided that I wanted Convo Socks. There were a LOT of lectures going on, and I wanted to attend them and stay awake. Therefore, I started some socks, just plain vanilla socks that would not take too much attention but would be occupying enough that I would not fall asleep. They are in the Neeley's Knits Sock yarn in the Jack color way. 




I cast on the socks during my first day of Convo, and I finished the socks yesterday, at the last OMM Children's Clinic with Dr. Galin that we will ever have. It was very appropriate that these were my first OMM socks.

Next, I started my Grapes and Wine Shawl. I started the shawl with handspun from my knit-night friend Keena, who sells her handspun as Happy Handspun on Etsy. She had brought some of her handspun to share/sell months ago, and I finally got to cast it on. I used the pattern Brandywine from Romi Hill, and it was beautiful. Unfortunately, I ran out of yarn with 5 rows to go, so I ended up using some of my very first handspun. It was actually very nice, as I wasn't sure what I was going to use my handspun for, and this was perfect.
Finally, I also finished a headband. This was a really quick knit, as my friend Carmen from med school wanted a headband/earwarmer for her audition rotations in Michigan. She's never lived outside of California and Nevada, and needed something for the winter. I cast on one day at the hospital when we had a lot of downtime, and finished binding off this morning. 
Despite the title, I think I'm going to sign off now as this is a much longer post than I was expecting. I've had a great time these last two months, despite all the anxiety (more on that in the next post.) I've expanded my knitting repertoire, and learn many new medical skills. 
Love and hugs, 
~Z